I cried out to God over two years ago & the journey I have been on has brought me to deep repentance & great suffering. I am a joyful, playful, positive person by nature, however, there have been season's in my life where God allows me to see the sad, barren & dark side of life & my need to be reminded of my absolute, dire need for Him, 'EL', 'The Strong One'. I have been to this wilderness place before. It is dry, it is lonely, it is frightening, there is no way out or around it, it is painful. Though I have asked for more, I have resisted & have quite honestly, resented the way in which it has come to me. Where are the 3rd Heaven experiences I asked for? The God Encounter's? The Joy of the Lord & the Pleasure's at His right side? I don't understand why I go to this place, most people I know, do not. And I, like the children of Israel, have done alot of wandering, reasoning, worshiping of false gods, trying to cover up my sin & shame, seeking answers in 'people & things', only to return to this lonely, dry, barren land inside of me. This 'Land of Promise' comes at a tremendous cost, I must fight one of my greatest battles here, face my 'Goliath', my mountains, the very enemies of my soul, so that I may overcome & possess it. God will not leave me here. I have a choice to make, for life, not only for myself but for my family. I begin to see the land flowing with 'Milk & Honey'. Each time I have passed through this wilderness, I have been filled to the overflow of His Spirit & the New Wine He has for me. He becomes The Breath of Life I so desperately longed for. What used to 'work' will no longer carry the anointing & power of 'EL' I must have to move forward. So I move forward, and like the Apostle Paul, 'I forget what lies behind' & by faith step into my 'Land of Promise'. "The Lord is my Strength and my Song, and He has become my Salvation; this is my God, and I will praise Him, my father’s God, and I will exalt Him." Exodus 15:2
I love mountain living, am inspired and grounded through the beauty that surrounds me. I value loving relationships in an intimate setting along with delicious foods, and rich coversation. My family is of utmost importance and my greatest desire is to live and leave them with a legacy of wealth, spiritually and financially. My greatest gift is to encourage others to live out their purpose and destiny in life. I love to travel, learn, read, draw, journal, listen to music, worship, and hike.